Life in Front of a Screen.

I've spent a large portion of my life either in front of a T.V. or a computer, oftentimes both. It weirds me out how I become uneasy when I'm at home and I'm not in front of a screen. I'm still getting used to not having a T.V. in my room after it being gone for months now.

I crave information. I'm terrible at storing the information away, perhaps in part due to the fact I take in so much. For this reason, I have the T.V. or computer or music or some combination of the three going a most times. I feel weird without one of those three, especially if it's quiet. I like feeling weird, however, so I've been going without these things more frequently lately. I'm still pretty terrible at not having things going all of the time, but again, I'm better than I have been. I don't feel so bad about the music as I do the T.V. or computer. I waste so much time because of those things and that's just not okay.

On a side-note, I also crave truth. I think the reason I'm argumentative a lot of times stems from my yearning for truth. I'm simply not happy with being close to the truth or having part of it, I must have all of it. Truth is hard to peg down these days, unfortunately, and not everyone wants it. Some people are happy with being approximatists, but I'm not so when it comes to finding out the truth of something. That's not to say they're in the wrong for not thoroughly searching the truth. Ideally, we all will search it, but we are made differently and that is okay, provided we understand that and act accordingly. That is one of my biggest struggles. Side-note ended.

But yes, information intake: I like it. I'd go on about it more and how it pertains to part of my personality and how it affects the rest of my life, but I'm too tired and wary of narcissism to do so.

In conclusion, I dislike silence and not being in front of a screen. I am a product of the 21st Century and that isn't so bad a thing, provided it doesn't get out of hand. As a friend has said, "good" is the worst enemy of "the best." I strive for self-improvement, but the fact that I'm nowhere near perfect is okay since Jesus is so dang good.

Love,
Colton